This morning I got an email that I was approved to get an e-galley of The Day Before by Lisa Schroeder. I was super excited about this, of course. Lisa is a local author to me. I’ve met her several times and I’ve read every book she has published and all of them were 5 star books. Even her children’s book is a favorite in this house. But it’s her verse novels that really get to me. They are poetic, and beautiful and haunting, and what other words are there to describe them? Perfect. They are perfect, and they hit home for me. When I was a teen I wrote ALL the time. I wrote stories but mostly I wrote a lot of poetry. Sometimes my poetry turned into stories and were pages and pages long. But at that time verse novels weren’t heard of (at least I’d never heard of them) so I didn’t know that I may have had something there. Something that could be something. I wrote about my friend that committed suicide, I wrote about my friend that overdosed while pregnant, I wrote about every single thing in my life that made me feel. Things that made me hurt, things that made me happy. I wrote and I wrote and I wrote. When I was 17 I moved away from home. Long story short I ended up with a bad guy. He tore up everything I wrote. Not only physically, but mentally he tore me down. My boxes and boxes of notebooks were destroyed. He ripped my heart out. He destroyed me. But I found myself. It took years, but I found myself again. However, I have lost that ability to write what is in my heart and soul. His constant ridicule made me put up a safety wall so that I never felt that again. Because to write you have to feel. You have to feel the emotions the characters feel, go through what the characters go through. Live through it with them. And I have a wall up. I’ve tried to knock that wall down and I can see pieces of it falling. I can see hope in the future. But for now what makes me feel, what gets through the chinks in that wall is the books I read. And some books make me feel just as much as I felt before. When I was a teenager. And Lisa is the one who has knocked down the biggest portion of that wall. With I Heart You, You Haunt Me I felt the first crack in the wall, I was starting to feel things again. Far From You and Chasing Brooklyn widened that crack substantially but The Day Before just knocked a big bit of that wall completely down. I feel inspired again. I want to write about things that happened to me, I want to bring to others what Lisa has brought to me.
To find out more about Lisa Schroeder and her books check out her blog.